Dying to Live or Living to Die
One of my favorite songs from Tupac is Runnin' (Dyin' to Live) ft The Notorious BIG. To me, the most important part of that song is the hook. And it made me think... Am I dying to live or living to die?
There was a point in time where I was living to die. Everyone has a last day, and as each day went on, I was getting closer and closer to that mark. I put little thought into the substance of my own life, and lived without conviction. I felt that I was pretty free within my own right. But as time went on and I went through a few more things in life, I started to wonder what kind of footprint was I leaving. This really came to head once I had my first child. What was I passing on? What would she learn from me? Was she going to live to die too? I saw more to her life than I saw in mine.
So many of us have been in the same live-to die boat. Everyday is just like the last. Nothing ever changes. And you're one day closer to leaving this Earth. But when you're dying to live, you're seeking life in everything you do. It's not that you're killing yourself to keep going, it's that you're trying your absolute hardest to live your life to it's fullest capacity, and then some. At least that's how I see it. I work hard to make sure my kids see their world in color instead of black and white. Or that they stop to notice the beauty in something that most people would just walk right passed.
Dying is inevitable. But once you actually start living life, you can appreciate it for everything that it is, you can love it fully, and be thankful that you have today, because tomorrow is never promised.